May I Complain?

Well you don't really have a choice so here it goes...

I am currently sitting at my intern desk at the ILI doing a bit of self reflection, which i do all to often. I am 22 years old and realizing that my parents met and got married not far away from the age I am now. How did they have their shit together so early?

Maybe you know, but I myself along with the majority of my generation is working on getting their so called shit together well into their late 20s and early 30s. I am 22 pursuing a graduate degree for god knows what reason and am lost. Yes lost in my career world, lost in my relationship world, and even lost in where I want to end up physically located in life. Whether it be Israel, Manhattan, St. Louis, or Dubai (psht that would be interesting). Who knows where I'll be in 10 years!?! And that is the scariest part. While all those people are finding themselves in Africa or Asia, I am sitting at a desk in DC actively working to find out what I want to do with my life by pursuing a masters in Political Science (yea i know that's where I went wrong!) and interning. And how does all this hard work repay me? Database fucking entry! Ya the life of an unpaid internship isn't as golden as volunteering helping to feed the poor in Africa, or setting up schools in rural China neither is it as noble. Maybe I should've picked the more colorful alternative to "finding myself"...

I was considering law school post-graduation and on the one hand am happy I didn't subject myself to the eternal entrapment of what law school offers (I DO think law is really interesting, but you all know what I'm talking about). On the other hand I would've been spending these next two years usefully pursuing a degree that makes me somewhat marketable and stable. Instead, I'm spending two years of my life getting another useless degree. Yay political science masters!

Well I realize this is a fairly dark and complainy post so I'll get to my brighter point. While I am currently upset with the world and the state that I have come to be in, I realize that there are positives to my situation as well and while enjoying them may be difficult each experience we have makes us a stronger person and helps us better understand ourselves, whether it be the right or wrong choices we make. So maybe all this database entry shit means something bigger hahah jk it defintiely doesn't. But maybe I'm in DC for a reason, to realize this isn't the right path for me...or maybe I'll just bump into it later than expected.

I always say the only way to look is forward, why not up as well?

Peace guys, I promise I'll update you on my happenings soon!